you, now, here? You were very generous, it is true, but you did it so
that they would thank you, to be praised, so that they would say that
you were good. You manipulated everyone, with money, so that in
exchange they would do you favors. Tell me: what have you
brought here? When I saw you with the economic ruin, it was not a
punishment as you thought, but a blessing. Yes, that bankruptcy was
to strip you of that god, that god that you served! It was to make you
return to Me! But you rebelled, you refused to come down from
your social level, and you cursed, slave of this your god money!
You thought to have obtained all this alone, with your forces, with
the studies, because you were a worker, a fighter& Instead no!
Look how many professionals there are, with the academic studies
better than yours; how many in work commit themselves as and
more than you: observe their conditions& To you was given much,
and for this motive much is asked of you; for much you must
respond .
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Think about it, for every grain of rice that I wasted, I had to render
an account to God! For all the times that I threw out food in the
garbage!
In my Book of Life, I saw when I was small and my family was
poor. My mother often cooked beans; and I hated them, I detested
them. I would say: And again these cursed beans? One day I will
be so rich, that I will never eat them again . I saw that one time I
threw out the beans that Mamma had served to me, without her
noticing it, and when she sat down to eat she noticed that my plate
was empty. She thought that I had eaten in a hurry because I was
very hungry, and she served me another time, giving to me the
portion reserved for her: so she ended up not eating. You know, the
Lord showed me that among the people closest to me, the one who
often suffered hunger at that time, was my mother. Having seven
children, many times she did not eat so that we might eat, because
we were very poor. Well, that day she remained hungry in order to
give me, without knowing it, that which I had thrown in the
garbage. But it also happened, often, that she did not eat because
someone knocked on the door to ask for food, and she gave what
she was eating. She suffered hunger, but she never made any kind of
a show, she never had an embittered face, much less sad, nor any
other sign. On the contrary, she always had a smile and one did not
notice anything about her. I have already recounted to you what a
jewel of a daughter I was?! I called my father Peter the rock-
breaker (Fred of the Flintstones ), and to my mother I said she
was old fashion! That she was an old antiquated lady, and other
similar things. Even to the point of denying that she was my mother,
because I was ashamed. Just imagine!...
And yet, you cannot imagine the graces, the blessings that were
scattered over me and on the whole world, due to my mother! Think
of the grace to have a mother that goes to church and, before the
tabernacle, offers her sufferings and her pain to Jesus, and even
more confides! Confides in Him!
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The Lord said to me: Never did anyone love you, and will love
you, as your mother! Never! No one will love you so tenderly as
her! Then the Lord showed me all the parties she gave me (after
my change in social condition)... In those banquets, in those buffets,
half of the food ended up in the garbage, without any thought about
it.
The Lord continued: Look at your brothers, suffering from hunger!
I was hungry! , he said to me almost shouting. You know how it
sorrows the Lord hunger, need, and the suffering of His children!
How it saddens Him our egoism and our lack of charity toward
neighbor!
And he continued to make me see how in my house there were so
many refined and costly things. As a matter of fact, at that time, I
had stuff in my house very costly, very elegant cloths, very costly.
The Lord said to me: I was naked, and you had a closet full of
expensive cloths, that you did not use& I saw also that, when we
lived in a high social level, if my girlfriends bought signed cloths, I
had to acquire those even better; if one of them bought a nice car, I
had to get a better one& I wanted always something better
compared to them, because I was jealous. The Lord said to me:
You were always haughty; you made comparisons with those who
were better off than you! Rich people! And you never looked at
those who were less economically well off than you. When you
were poor, you walked along the way of sanctity, because you even
gave that which you were lacking . And he showed me how much it
pleased him my gesture, one time that my mother, notwithstanding
our poverty, she succeeded in buying for me brand-name tennis
shoes. I was very happy, but I met a child on the street that was
barefooted, and I felt such a pain for him, that I took off the shoes
and gave them to him. I returned home without shoes, and my father
almost killed me! And not without reason: with the poverty in which
we were in, so much sacrifice in order to buy them, and I gave them
along the way, as soon as they had been bought! But the Lord was
content about this! How he was happy about the way by which I
was walking! Notwithstanding we were a complicated and poor
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family, God scattered on us many graces and blessings due to the
merits of my mother, of her goodness and of her prayers. The Lord
continued showing me that, if I had not been closed to the Grace and
to the Holy Spirit, I could have helped a lot of people, with the
talents that he had given to me. He showed me all of humanity, and
how we respond to God, due to how we have lived, holding the
heart closed to Him and to the Holy Spirit, and to their divine
inspirations. He said to me: I had inspired you to pray for these
people: if you had done this, the evil would not have entered into
them, causing so much damage . For example: a little girl was
sexually assaulted by her father: if I had not closed myself to the
Holy Spirit, I would had listened to His Divine inspirations, and I
would have prayed for them: so that he evil one would not have
entered into that father, protected by the prayer, and that violence
would not have happened, nor would have cause so much suffering.
Or also, that young boy would not have committed suicide. The
Lord continued saying to me: If you might have prayed, that girl
would not have aborted, that person would not be dead feeling
herself abandoned by Me, in a hospital bed. If you would have
prayed, I would have counseled you, so that you might have begun
to help your brothers. I would have guided you! I would have led
you to these people. So much sorrow in the world, and you could
have helped!
He showed me how many people suffer in the world, and how much
I could have helped. Never did I permit that the Holy Spirit touch
me, nor ever did I let myself be moved by the suffering of others.
The Lord said to me: Look at the suffering of my people, look how
I needed to wound your family with cancer, so that you might be
moved for those suffering the same sickness! You were moved for
the sequestered, only after your husband himself was sequestered .
And almost shouting: But you, of stone!!! Incapable to feel love!
To conclude, I will try to explain how we see ourselves in the Book
of Life.
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I was very hypocritical, false. I was one of those who before the
person I make eulogies, but behind their back I spoke about them
badly; that outside they speak well, but inside you do not hear what
they say. For example, I eulogized someone saying: You are pretty,
what a nice dress, it goes very well with you . But inside I was
thinking: how gross, you are ugly, and you believe to be the queen!
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